Today is Tracy’s 42nd Birthday, and our first birthday without her. To say I am heartbroken to not be able to celebrate today with her here is an understatement. But I will all find a way to toast her in my own way.
Tracy was and is the ultimate survivor. She was a tough as nails bad ass with one of the biggest and softest hearts. She was silly and goofy and thought she was the best dancer EVER, even though we tried to tell her different. She adored her family, cherished her friends and never took one day of her life for granted.
One of my most favorite memories I have of Tray is from about 2 years ago. Tracy, our dear friend Sarah and I went out for a night on the town in good old NYC!!! We started the night out at The Bubble Lounge, enjoying very expensive champagne and too expensive snackage. I taught Sarah and Tray the proper way to do the MySpace/Facebook fishy-face and then spent the next hour making fishy faces for the camera perfecting our sassy pouts. From the Bubble Lounge we hopped to a few other clubs and found them dull and not up to our speed at all. So I took them to my stomping grounds. McFadden’s!!
I can’t even begin to tell you the fun we had. I have a few close friends that work there and for the night they treated us like VIP. Free drinks, our choice of music and our own table/section on the dance floor. My favorite part of the night was getting my sister up on the bar with me to shake our very fine arses!! And yes even poor Sarah was dragged on top of the bar to partake in our raunchy dance. Yes I have the pictures to prove it!!
My sister glowed that night. Her smile was so wide is must have hurt. We laughed till we doubled over and danced till our calf muscles quivered!! It will be a night that I will always remember. A night we celebrated life, love and having one another.
Today is Tracy’s birthday. I miss her, I love her and I aspire to be as strong, beautiful and courageous as only she could be.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BIG SISTER!!! I love you with all of my heart!
*Please enjoy the video I have posted below. It is a video of Tracy on her 40th Birthday when she rode a motorcycle from Scotland to England with other amazing survivor from Amazon Heart. I’m sure you know the words… Please sing along….. LOUD!!!
Love, Love, Love!
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